They say that some persons are very good in advising problems especially when it comes to the matters of the heart, yet they find it dificult to solve their own love problems. The same is true for me. And I am in the tip of a stiff cliff right now, and I have to decide before I fall down.
Who are you going to choose? It’s really a tough question and it needs a very careful examination of all facets so the decision wouldn’t be immatured.
I am happy when I am with person A. With ___, I feel secured and protected. Nevertheless, we shared more than four years of good friendship and we have finetuned each other’s differences. I have a lot of good memories with ___. And many times I realized that ____ is willing to risk ___ life for me. Friends who know me well know who ___ is and can attest to the strength of our special friendship that has withstood the test of time. Lately when I realized that ___ still values me the way __did before, it made me want to take a u-turn and find ___ side where I am so much happy. If not for some instances that made us part ways, I know I will still be by ___ side. The problem is ___ has an excess baggage now, but I don’t care. If __ agrees, I even want ___ son to be mine. But I think the biggest obstacle is that ___ is not ready for us, yet ___ gives everything and every effort to let me feel that I am loved and important.
Person B is different. _____ is the impossible dream, the unreachable star. And when I am with ___, I know I am wearing a crown that is the envy of others. ___ is always there, readily available always for me. We share the same likes and dislikes, ____ is the one I always share dinner with, somebody who gives me company in my solitary life in the city. I’ve fallen for ___, yet I did not give my whole heart unlike with Person A. I am now afraid to get hurt again. And so did ___. Anyway, ___ is a star, a million miles away from me, and it is impossible for __ to fall for a commoner like me. Though I am enjoying every moment I am with ___.
This time I want a level-up. I want more than friendship and companionship. Person A gives me love that I need yet __ is not always around to show me that he does. Person B gives me company and boosts my morale and ___ is always (read: always) there for me yet it’s just friendship and companionship.
Who am I going to choose? If I can only make one person out of them…
